By Me Self Image Magazine
September 2026 Issue: Beyond Illusions
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As I stare here at my blank pages every month, I normally have such a clear direction of where I want to take you. Sometimes I feel the journey I want to take you on is completely out of reach, and sometimes I feel that the points of the articles can sometimes be missed. I write some of these articles never truly believing that anyone is listening or reading. I do not know to whom these articles are landing with. With that being said, as I move forward, I am going to attempt to give you the most raw version of myself throughout this journey. I am realizing the more I play things safe, the more my message is getting diluted.
With that being said, these articles are written from my perspective of things, and may hold some triggers and things that may make you feel uncomfortable. This is all necessary for the integrity of the articles and the journey I am attempting to take you on. This journey is about YOU. This is about your inner reflections and healing so that we are able to truly connect to people through soul levels vs. the surface level that I feel has built our society. So please, bear with me at the rawest writings you may ever encounter. Strap in and let’s take the journey for you to take back control over your life.
In religion, we have so many topics that feel taboo and hard to navigate because we do not want to step on the toes of the people we care about. We want to play it safe due to the perception of how other people would feel about exposure. I am not here to judge anyone; in fact, I want to help people understand the reasons I feel my religion, Christianity, has used the weight of the Bible as a heavy whip to condemn people to conform to rigid structures rather than truly understanding the context of what the Bible is truly about.
Have you ever been on the receiving end where Christians are calling you out for things that they deem as sinful? Or have you been the one calling people out based on their “sins”? I am not here to tell you what is sinful and what is not. I feel that it is God’s job to do the judgment and it is my job to live out His word by honoring Him. As Christians, we come to Jesus not because we are perfect, but as a realization that we are all imperfect and we are all in need of a Savior. So for those to condemn someone and act as if they hold a higher moral ground—to make them feel they are more worthy of saving—is actually very disgusting to me. God explicitly states that He does not see one person’s sin as more than another’s. In the Bible, we are taught “He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first” (John 8:7) and “First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye” (Matthew 7:5). These are verses that directly call out that type of hypocrisy.
With that knowledge, let’s get into the core of Leviticus. To understand the laws is to understand why they were created in the first place. Remember the time that the Israelites were held prisoners in Egypt? (Exodus 1:11–14). Now, if you have not heard that story, and you are spitting out Leviticus as bullets instead of extending a hand, I am about to dismantle your whole reality. So buckle up Bill—this is the truth that you NEED to hear. The Israelites were held for centuries as slaves in Egypt, and when they FINALLY listened to God’s instructions to break free from slavery (Exodus 12:31–42), this is where the breakdown happens. This was not an easy journey out of slavery; this was a newly liberated group of refugees trying to survive in the wilderness (Deuteronomy 8:2–4).
First, let me take a moment to recognize the bravery it took for them to take back their sovereignty. The desert was harsh and unforgiving, and I am going to assume that not everyone survived through that trip of liberation. I am also going to assume that back in Egypt they were not treated as sovereign humans. I am sure they were weak, malnourished, and the meekness of their existence was hanging on a balance of luck and very restrictive rules. Leviticus was not just written for moral laws, but for ceremonial laws and survival laws. This is where I feel the injustice of many people is snuffed out because of the harsh judgments of today.
Their immediate survival depended on building a healthy population without disease, warfare, and harsh living conditions. This is where the rules acted as practical guidelines for this era to preserve and build up their bloodlines. Honestly, not too much more to say about this, other than the fact these laws were not to condemn people for who they are, but to help the survival of the community.
The cleanliness of ceremonial frequency and health—known in Hebrew as Chukkim (חֻקִּים), meaning decree or health statutes—were the rules that acted to elevate the baseline frequency and remain spiritually focused (Leviticus 19:19). I say the word frequency because of the findings in our current science with the research of how the frequency of wool and linen both hold high frequencies on the opposite spectrum—which putting them together actually cancels out their frequencies (Deuteronomy 22:11).
Listen—when Adam and Eve were in the Garden of Eden, when they were sinless, they held the frequency that would allow them to be in the presence of God (Genesis 2:25), but the second that they sinned against God’s spoken word, they were no longer able to stand in the presence of God. They hid from God because they realized they were naked (Genesis 3:7–10). Which brings me to another observation with this text: God doesn’t give us laws and rules to dictate our lives, but to protect us from our own demise. That is why it is important to listen to God and not to self. The fruit on the tree that God told Adam and Eve not to eat was the same fruit that introduced death and decay to our bodies (Genesis 3:17–19). When that death and decay entered into our bodies, that was when we were no longer able to be directly connected to God. I always say: higher the frequency, the closer to God you are. When you hold a death frequency (eating things that consume the rot of death and decay, as outlined in Leviticus 11:7–8) or when your frequency doesn’t exist because of what you are wearing, you are not able to truly be in God’s presence.
This was all before the sacrifice of Jesus on the Cross (Hebrews 10:10–14). That is why many argue that you are able to eat pork and things that eat death and decay (Acts 10:13–15). That is why many people wear clothing that has multiple fabrics woven together.
I want to confront this head-on though. Do you think these ceremonial laws were created just to be created, or do you feel there was more of a purpose behind it? Did you know that in modern holistic views, linen actually has healing properties? Did you know that pigs are not able to sweat through their skin, so it creates an environment for bacteria and parasites to thrive?
Ponder on everything I just brought to light for you. This isn’t judgment, but more of an observation that brings me back to the Garden of Eden and the forbidden fruit that was eaten that caused death and decay to each and every one of us. Do what you will with that information; after all, it is the discernment that God gives you that matters, and not my observation.
Which brings me on to my third point of the laws of Leviticus:
Moral Evil—known in ancient Hebrew as Mishpatim (מִשְׁפָּטִים), meaning eternal moral judgments. Now this is what I actually perceive as sin. When I think of these laws, I see these are universal moral laws that invoke harm onto God’s other creations, and/or yourself and spirit.
When you put yourself above anyone else, you are harming your spirit. Have you ever cheated or lied to get something you wanted? (Exodus 20:15–16). If so, how did you feel afterward? I bet there was a feeling of undeserved power, or a sinking feeling of absolute regret. You may not have realized it at the time, but what you did was sinning against your own spirit. Our souls are meant to be pure and untainted, so when we are hurting another being, we are directly hurting that soul—we are tainting it. Why I am against the narrative of the world and the “elitists” is mainly because their practices are rarely of integrity, but more so of greed and dishonoring God.
One thing I have learned is that I am not here for myself, but for God’s purpose. I personally do not celebrate my “birthday” because I am not here to rejoice in myself, but to show the world God through my actions. I do not deserve the recognition; I am here solely for God and His plan, and He deserves all of the praise. The discernment God has given me throughout this journey—I have come to the conclusion that to accept a gift from someone is to accept an offering as if I were God, especially on ceremonial days like your birthday. To me that is an abomination—translated from the Hebrew word To’evah (תּוֹעֵבָה), meaning a breach of holy boundary lines—because in my eyes I would be acting as if I was God and not truly living as a humble servant of Christ. In the Bible, it teaches us: “You shall have no other gods before Me” (Exodus 20:3).
Anytime you denounce what God has done, did you know that you are actually being blasphemous against our Creator? Please reflect on this for a moment. Because in the Bible, Jesus states:
“Assuredly, I say to you, all sins will be forgiven the sons of men… but he who blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness” (Mark 3:28–29).
Try to understand the why behind that—because in my opinion, that is the sin that pretty much destroys the connection between our souls and the Creator. So why is that so important to uphold, you may ask? When you ask yourself this question, you are unlocking a piece of knowledge and discernment I feel God has always wanted us to understand—and for you to understand is for you to explore that journey with God, and not for me to give you my answers.
This is actually going to usher us into my final point: JUDGMENT. As I said before, I feel that Christians bark out orders and laws as if they hold the higher moral ground than another person—although God stated that all sin separates us from Him (Romans 3:23). So have you been turned away by people who claim they are “Christian,” or have you ever been the one to turn someone away because they are “not of God”? You may be wondering why I am bringing this up right after the unforgivable sin of blasphemy. Have you ever wondered if, by any of your actions when looking at another imperfect person (we are all imperfect, so don’t get offended by that now), we may be directly challenging the power that God truly has? (Romans 14:4).
Although your path with God is deeply personal and grounded by God and the discernment He has given you, you are not the only person that Jesus died on the cross for. It was for each and every one of us (John 3:16). No one is too far gone or too far from the path for Jesus’s sacrifice. Do you remember the parable of Jesus leaving the ninety-nine just for the one lost sheep? (Luke 15:4–7). That in itself is such a powerful story. We are that one lamb, and if the Bible teaches us anything with that story, it is that it doesn’t matter where we are at in life or in our journey, Jesus meets us where we are (Luke 19:10).
A lot of Christians, I feel, bombard people with “facts” and a long list of “sins” that they may not even know the actual context of, and it overwhelms the people who want to be accepted by Christ and feel the love that God has for us. I feel that is something that pushes people away.
That type of judgment is the pinnacle that I feel the devil himself exploits within the Christian community, and instead of recognizing it for what it is, a lot of Christians double down—when in reality, I see this as blasphemy against God’s power to save. God didn’t make mistakes when He created anyone. People are who they are and live the lives they live, and everything they have lived is a living testimony. To deny someone of the same grace that was given to you is the very sin that God warns us about. God has the power to change people’s hearts (Ezekiel 36:26), and God has the power to give people the discernment His people need to carry out GOD’S purpose. To suggest someone needs to be perfect is to suggest that God doesn’t have the power—which, in my opinion, is very blasphemous.
I am going to share a story I heard from a TikTok that was posted. It was an ex-witch speaking. She explained the spiritual battles and how she used to curse people and held a lot of demons within her. She was a drug addict and all she really, truly wanted was to be loved—even if it was for 15 minutes. She was using dirty needles and got hepatitis B. She was dying and her liver was failing. A Christian woman befriended her and treated her as if she was a human (a concept that seems to be unheard of these days when people hold opposing views of this world)—she didn’t see the sin, she saw the person. She invited her to come to church with her, and the ex-witch went, stating: “Why not? I was dying anyways.” She went, and when she was there, this is when God spoke to her, and when she gave her life to God.
(Link to that TikTok):
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTA3thAbM/
I want you to watch that video and sit with it for a few moments. I want to know what you learned from that and what spoke to you. I do not question that if you have read this article that something inside of you shifted or clicked. I know the power of God and I know this was meant to destroy the foundations that were not rooted in Christ. If you are not a Christian and you want to know the power of God and the love that He has for you, I invite you to give your heart to Him, just as you are, because wherever YOU are, Jesus will meet you there with His heart and arms wide open.
I invite you to pray:
Dear Heavenly Father,
I invite You into my heart, for I know Your love is something I have never experienced through anything that I have been chasing on this Earth. I ask that You provide me with the discernment that I need and the wisdom to decipher through the noise that surrounds the world. I ask for You to transform my heart and use me for Your purpose, and I ask that You forgive me for my sins and past transgressions. I lay my heart and soul at Your feet, for I am ready to receive Your love and grace.
In Jesus’ Name,
Amen.
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